I have no clue what my next step is. In 1999 I was getting ready to graduate High School. My grades were pretty bad, but it was from lack of effort more than lack of smarts. I in no way wpplied myself. I was involved with theate and that is where my priorty lay. I was president of drama club and was putting together the first ever student run production at my high school. I was in an improv troupe and I was in a band. My life was full of shit I wanted to do, but if you asked me if i was going to college my answer was ,no. I thought"why spend all this money going to school for theater, so I can just wait tables". So i took a year off after H.S. and then got bored went to community college for theater and ended up taking over the acting class b/c the teacher had never been on stage..I auditioned for something HUGE and was told that I was too this or too that, and then went to more auditions and my skin got so thin that I never did acting again. In the mean time my parents were going through a messy split, and my father was killing me with insults about my acting and my looks..so, yeah I gave up..Now at 25 I wish i had done something with my life. I love the idea that maybe my adult work will take me somewhere..but you always have to have a back up plan. i just dont like the one i have now. but maybe i need to just deal with it, take the money i make and put it towards my goal..making good porn.