Tuesday Oct 24, 2006

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OK first of all SGB is tonight..If you are going private message me and i'll give you my cell number so you can text me where you are in the bar and we can meet. I am scared. Im very shy, and well don't want anyone to walk away going, wow what a dork(though most of you know I'm a dork anyway)
I talked on the phone with BrandonLongwood last night. Its always good to have a chat with him and help get my head back to where it needs to be.
I also talked to a new friend from here. He is the tits. Makes me feel all squishy inside. I'm lucky to have met him.
Its cold as balls out today..this makes me grumpy because my office mates are all going through menopause or something and they like the air to be on..so im at my desk in gloves and a scarf..meh.
I'm wondering what you have to do to be a private eye, I think I'm going to look into that.
I'm going to put this rant behind teh spoilerz

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I have no clue what my next step is. In 1999 I was getting ready to graduate High School. My grades were pretty bad, but it was from lack of effort more than lack of smarts. I in no way wpplied myself. I was involved with theate and that is where my priorty lay. I was president of drama club and was putting together the first ever student run production at my high school. I was in an improv troupe and I was in a band. My life was full of shit I wanted to do, but if you asked me if i was going to college my answer was ,no. I thought"why spend all this money going to school for theater, so I can just wait tables". So i took a year off after H.S. and then got bored went to community college for theater and ended up taking over the acting class b/c the teacher had never been on stage..I auditioned for something HUGE and was told that I was too this or too that, and then went to more auditions and my skin got so thin that I never did acting again. In the mean time my parents were going through a messy split, and my father was killing me with insults about my acting and my looks..so, yeah I gave up..Now at 25 I wish i had done something with my life. I love the idea that maybe my adult work will take me somewhere..but you always have to have a back up plan. i just dont like the one i have now. but maybe i need to just deal with it, take the money i make and put it towards my goal..making good porn.



so yeah that's where my head is.
Look for me to appear in an article this Thursday on SG.
I got drunk last nite..I was hella horny..well now i'm a bit hunover, and still horny.
I'm off work tomorrow..Brian and I are going to do housework..no rest for me, no rest.
Love you
AC
i cant fucking wait till tonite

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watutsi:
I drifted through school, then through Uni and now I'm drifting through life. As crap as these gut check moments feel at least they let you know that something's wrong and that you need to act or else just keep drifting.

Smart, savvy and gorgeous as hell, a girl into sex and sport you should be worshipped and adored (seriously where does the line start?)! love

Besides as my first (and only) SG friend I have a decided soft spot where you're concerned and I wish you the very best of luck, whatever direction life ends up taking you in.
smile
bhavok:
hope ya had fun last night..

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