My hair is going away tonite..im pleased, it will be very very shortish..
this weekend will be fun, full of work and such.
anyhow, last night was terribly boring and I was very moody. Im really trying to not let shit get to me. but life is kicking me in the head. Its just that time i suppose, that part of life where you make the choice as to what you next step will be, I know i have been talking about it alot..i just dont know what that step is..

I dontwant to let my depression come and get me, im trying to lock it out, I'm trying to fill my head with things like SGB on Tuesday, a pretty new haircut and a man that loves me. God I adore my hunny. Im blessed to have a best friend like him. I worked out last night, i never thought id have the energy for it, but i forced myself to give up 15 minutes..the fact that i did that helps with the depression, it helps me feel productive. the fact that my ass is in size 2 jeans today when 2 years ago my ass was in a 10 says alot. I just need to tell myself that i am doing good..but fuck it whatever.. Im pretty i suppose, im healthy, and i'm fun i guess.

So we have 2 outside kitty's Ginger from yesterday, and this wonderful long haired black and white kitty that has been around off and on for a few months..he's my hunny and i have name him girmilken becuase he looks like a cow, and i had a stuffed cow as a kid that had the name of girmilken...so thats that.

I am in love...and in lust..let me tell you..Im in lust with a few beautiful women..lord knows if they feel the same.
I hide behind this computer and tell you this, lord knows i'd never tell them to their face..

you know where to find me.
love you
AC