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Im out of the damn house..but im at work, so its not so much fun
Being home for a few days really helped the relationship i think..I had my own space, did my thing. he worked on the house. We studied eachother though, you know..he noticed things about me that i think he forgot..you know little quirks. We got in a tiff last nite, and honestly, it got the last bit of stuff we had issue about out.
Things seem to be on the up and up.
My fever is still around, and the sickness is lingering a bit, but i all in all im better.
I want so much for my future to be better than my past. I think that is what is pushing me so fucking much to improve myself. I really want more for myself than what my parents had. They made their life as rough as it was, they made choices that will forever effect my brother and i - but i think for the better. I have an amazing mother. I HAD an amazing father, He just got lost along the way. my dad gave me the ears I have for music, and thwe adoration for sports. and for thay i am greatful. But my dad gave me another trait that made my past hard. He taught me how to lie. And in H.S>. i did my fair share. we moved a bit, and changed schools alot, so i could create new and cooler lives with each shift. It bit me the ass by the time i was 16 i realized i didnt even know who i was. The other thing dad did that was so wonderful was borrow money from me from the time i was 10 till a few years ago. sometimes he would take $ out of my piggy bank, and he would think i didnt know, but i did. he would ask for cash and tell me that mom cant know that the power is getting shut off, and unless i give him the money, it will..next day, not hot water, no heat, no lights..But alas, he's my pop and i love him.
I ramble, anyhow..i thought about what is making me do porn, I though hard about it, just to make sure in my heart I think im doing what i like..and honestly, I feel that if my day jobs continue to suck, at least i know that im doing one thing that I love..
and now i have talked your ear off..or worded your eyes sore..anyhow, I missed everyone.
Im out of the damn house..but im at work, so its not so much fun
Being home for a few days really helped the relationship i think..I had my own space, did my thing. he worked on the house. We studied eachother though, you know..he noticed things about me that i think he forgot..you know little quirks. We got in a tiff last nite, and honestly, it got the last bit of stuff we had issue about out.
Things seem to be on the up and up.
My fever is still around, and the sickness is lingering a bit, but i all in all im better.
I want so much for my future to be better than my past. I think that is what is pushing me so fucking much to improve myself. I really want more for myself than what my parents had. They made their life as rough as it was, they made choices that will forever effect my brother and i - but i think for the better. I have an amazing mother. I HAD an amazing father, He just got lost along the way. my dad gave me the ears I have for music, and thwe adoration for sports. and for thay i am greatful. But my dad gave me another trait that made my past hard. He taught me how to lie. And in H.S>. i did my fair share. we moved a bit, and changed schools alot, so i could create new and cooler lives with each shift. It bit me the ass by the time i was 16 i realized i didnt even know who i was. The other thing dad did that was so wonderful was borrow money from me from the time i was 10 till a few years ago. sometimes he would take $ out of my piggy bank, and he would think i didnt know, but i did. he would ask for cash and tell me that mom cant know that the power is getting shut off, and unless i give him the money, it will..next day, not hot water, no heat, no lights..But alas, he's my pop and i love him.
I ramble, anyhow..i thought about what is making me do porn, I though hard about it, just to make sure in my heart I think im doing what i like..and honestly, I feel that if my day jobs continue to suck, at least i know that im doing one thing that I love..
and now i have talked your ear off..or worded your eyes sore..anyhow, I missed everyone.
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feel better soon!