avalon13chase

why do we rely so heavily on others impressions of us to make us feel complete..often we even create what other people's impressions are of us, and then allow that to dictate our well being. Im learning what makes me tick more everyday..the journey is rather interesting and admitedly painful from time to time.
but, it all for the best..
I was thinking, and i could be completely off base about this, but is it possible that our moods are scuplted by current events, even if we arent politcal or terribly aware of every news story. we hear the news, we see headlines-so im not sure of this, but do you think maybe deep down its unsettling us-even if we dont want to.
as i read the journals on here, more and more people are unhappy..could it be part of it? tell me what you think.
I am very excited about the website, my membership to the yahoo group grows everyday. soon www.avalonchase.com will have some previews on it and a mailing list to inform people of the launch and the party i will be having to promote the launch.
Today i feel very well..not nearly as down, very introspective, but not sad.
I have a hicky..how trashy, on the back of my neck..how ever did it get in that spot? use your imagination...anyway i think sex helped shift the mood..
Anyway..last nite i watched my tape of sunday's adult swim(since im usally asleep when it comes on)..fucking bad ass Venture brothers..
well im off to get some work done today...i was useless at my desk yesterday, so i have some catch up to play