avalon13chase

I got rejected for a clothing company campaign because I'm not "edgy" enough..fucking brilliant. SO these asshats contact me and say..hey you are hot, we like your look, we want to use you..and then this morning i guess head asshat says, un you dotn have ink or piercings, we arent interested..thank you for wasting my damn time. whatever.
so its friday. I made more this week than I thought i was going to.
Im forced to eat Subway today, i forgot to grab a sandwich this morn..i hate subway, but whatever..
Im visiting an old friend tomorrow..Im nervous, she's the one who one ups me like crazy..so tomorrow will be interesting. anyway tonite is filled with relaxation.
I miss my brother today..He is 18, and the most incredible human i know, next to my boyfriend...he is in florida this week on a mission trip for his church. I know the summer after HS graduation that is the last thing that would be on my mind. He listens to kick ass music, dresses hella cool, is a total gamer..I would have wanted him as a friend if we went to school together, and lucky me! he's my brother. He almost died before he was born, my mom and i were in an accident, 7 days before her due date..they thought she was going to lose him..then when she had him, she went mental, and i kinda took care of him after school..we have grown up together in a very powerful way..sometimes i honestly am overwhelmed with how lucky i am to have the life i have..