avalon

my life is moving in a forward manner and i am very content right now. i think that everything you go through makes the rewards you get so much sweeter. i worked my ass of at work and i was the 2nd best seller in the whole fucking site. out of like 1000 employees i was 2nd best. i was the best in a specific product in the whole damn site. i was the top performer on my team and my team was 2nd place. keep in mind it was my first quarter out of training. i got all together- $1125, 4 awards in all and I have 4 shiney new plaques on my desk for all this. fuck- that is badass. and all the struggle and hard work payed off. it is about goddamn time.

i was listening to this song today and it kind of fit my mood. damn- i love tool!




A groan of tedium escapes me,
Startling the fearful.
Is this a test? It has to be,
Otherwise I can't go on.
Draining patience, drain vitality.
This paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old.

But I'm still right here
Giving blood, keeping faith
And I'm still right here.

Wait it out,
Gonna wait it out,
Be patient (wait it out).

If there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
Gonna wait it out.

If there were no desire to heal
The damaged and broken met along
This tedious path I've chosen here
I certainly would've walked away by now.

And I still may ... (sigh) ... I still may.

Be patient.
I must keep reminding myself of this.

And if there were no rewards to reap,
No loving embrace to see me through
This tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
And I still may.

Gonna wait it out.

tool-the patient