avalon

he reaches through me and pulls out my hidden self
he touches me in a way no one else can
he unlocks my reservations

he destroys me at every chance
he ruins me with simply a word
he smears every color of my life

it is he
the boy with angel eyes, angel face
that tortures the day with a taste of heaven

it is he
the boy with devil's touch, devil's smile
that hails from the night with a blessed hell bound song

it is he
every boy i have ever loved

it is he
the boy i have never met

that i love that i hate that i need that i despise


i want what is perfect beautiful flawless

i want what is impure ugly scared


i want him to build me up and make me feel

i want him to tear me apart and make me real


i want it all and i want nothing
to survive it must be both

good and bad
naughty and nice

in this world i want what i can't have
in this world i have what i do not want

i want a balence
i want what's best
i want you

can you show me both sides? for i can show you mine
and we can ride off into the sunset with angel wings and devils tail
under a sky of love and a world of hate
hand in hand
sword to sword