I know ive been such a downer recently.
Blah, obnoxious.
Its like I have this itch I cant scratch- something is just always wrong, fuck im freaking myself out with this shit.
2 weeks to prom and tommorow i get to meet dr drimmer;
he sounds nice- first time THE doctor has actually called the day before an appointment- usually its their secretary, or i guess they call them assistants or technical writers nowadaze.
im sickly sick sick in the nose drippi and fever category so that really doesnt help.
Neither does my mom who came in last night when i was trying to sleep to yell at me about how it was all my fault for getting sick because i didnt open the windows so bacteria was growing in the air cause it was stagnent like 6 times in a row...fuckin loonie
Ive been feeling like im breaking apart for a while but the whole concept of it has only recently grabbed me and hit me...damn im in such a deep hole, graduation is really going to help that feeling, but not completely.
I just have shit mental and real world that needs to be taken care of- it seems for some reason that when i stop ignoring this stuff and try to take care of it , it gets like a million times worse. Maybe the deal is not to make things a big deal and the they wont be. On the other hand if they werent a big deal why take care of them...
I dont know i just dont want to screw up the most important thing in my life right now, and actually having something that trumps all other things, scares the shit out of me in some sense. Its like everything has to be reorganized in my brain because something new and outa the blue came along and just pushed all the other things aside.
BLAH too much thinking on a sick brain, if any of it sounds crazy i blame the fever...Jungle Fever (does a lil dance)
kk...peace and all that jazz
A.A.
Blah, obnoxious.
Its like I have this itch I cant scratch- something is just always wrong, fuck im freaking myself out with this shit.
2 weeks to prom and tommorow i get to meet dr drimmer;
he sounds nice- first time THE doctor has actually called the day before an appointment- usually its their secretary, or i guess they call them assistants or technical writers nowadaze.
im sickly sick sick in the nose drippi and fever category so that really doesnt help.
Neither does my mom who came in last night when i was trying to sleep to yell at me about how it was all my fault for getting sick because i didnt open the windows so bacteria was growing in the air cause it was stagnent like 6 times in a row...fuckin loonie
Ive been feeling like im breaking apart for a while but the whole concept of it has only recently grabbed me and hit me...damn im in such a deep hole, graduation is really going to help that feeling, but not completely.
I just have shit mental and real world that needs to be taken care of- it seems for some reason that when i stop ignoring this stuff and try to take care of it , it gets like a million times worse. Maybe the deal is not to make things a big deal and the they wont be. On the other hand if they werent a big deal why take care of them...
I dont know i just dont want to screw up the most important thing in my life right now, and actually having something that trumps all other things, scares the shit out of me in some sense. Its like everything has to be reorganized in my brain because something new and outa the blue came along and just pushed all the other things aside.
BLAH too much thinking on a sick brain, if any of it sounds crazy i blame the fever...Jungle Fever (does a lil dance)
kk...peace and all that jazz
A.A.
silverfoxgirl:
Just wait for your nice summer vacation with me, that will take alot of the problems away. And then 6 hrs. thats all I have to say.