avaadora

what a crazy week....it seems like nothing is going my way...at all!!!
the bills are pileing up just in time for christmas,(turns out i didnt pay all my taxes in full last year)
i didnt get the job at hottopic (i guess i wasnt scene enuff)
my current job is getting on my last nerve...(its the christmas season so retail jobs suck this time of year)
.and its snowing like a bitch in cleveland ohio.....

i should be used to this sorta thing, it seems every year tword christmas things go very wrong...., it just seems very overwhelming this time around. i really dont want to disapoint my loved ones.

As always though, i am staying strong, keeping my head up and wearing a smile. Its just really hard to hind my feeling so deep inside, i feel like crying all day, but i cant. i wont! i feel like running away and starting a new..but i dont want to leave the people i love behinde, i dont want to disaper

"its not hard to fail, its not easy to win" cold wasted years...i really live by that, i tell myself over and over again, lifes not easy, its not easy to come up in life, yet is so easy, so very simple to bring yourself down, fucking up is not hard....

soooo with all that said and done leave me some silly comments...leave me some love...make me smile...cheer me up....with cuteness...love ya guys

anyway..thanks everyone for the birthday love.ya made me smile..thanks for the comments, or my crappy set...te,he...ill do better next time......


ohhh by the way heres a pic of the new kittie my brother brought home