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the flowered trees smell like sperm....it's both funny and disturbing...

i have a job interview today that i really don't wanna go to....i'm such a lazy bum...ah well...actually i'm kinda nervous and i think i'm gonna be sick...i think there's other things behind it....not sure though....if i explode then i'll know it's more than the interview....

i can feel the anxiety building making me paranoid about a bunch of unrelated things but i cant' tell...
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this anxiety is killing me....i think i get a little crazier everyday...a little more paranoid too....damn now i miss those medicated days....

i'm still thinking about going home for a couple of months...get my head back on straight and if we don't make it through the distance this time then oh well....too bad...he's been fucking with my head...it's not a good idea to fuck with the head of a crazy person...

i made peach cobbler today...then i ate it hot with ice cream....cuz i am awesome...oh and it was DELICIOUS!!! are you jealous??? you should be.

i had a full blown anxiety attack...i haven't had one like that in a year or so....it was fun....but it got a lot of stuf out...munky's never seen me, or anyone, like that before....it scared him. I know he thought I was crazy before, but now he's positive. Ah well....at least he knows what he's dealing with now...

alright i'm over it....but looks like i might be going home early... without the munky..

i don't like to bitch or complain much.....but i'm not happy...in general....that's all...

edit: i really need to write it all out, but i'm not about to spill it all out here...now that's all

midnight skate for midnight chocolate cake = a productive night and a good midnight snack....

orange is not a natural skin color...i don't understand why people insist on trying to pass it off as tan... especially in the winter...generally speaking people aren't naturally tan in the winter particularly people that are naturally pale to begin with....and it makes me wonder if these orange people know that they're orange.. is the light in their house faulty? or maybe a bluish bulb...
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