ava_jade

there are a few lines from a few songs that have always stuck in my head even when they have nothing to do with anything...so take the ones you want and leave the ones you don't

"i find myself choking on all my contradictions"

"i think about you all the time, but i don't need the same"

"i thought i lost you somewhere, but you...
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preparations for the near future caused a brief moment of panic...
gone for now...
but i'm sure that it will return as the days pass

is it weird that i've kinda missed falling asleep alone on the couch wrapped up in a sleeping bag
in front of the glow of the computer screen?

tomorrow, which will be today in about 15 minutes, is going to be a long fucking day
i don't think i'm ready for it...

"if you don't like my fire, then don't come around
'cause i'm gonna burn one down.."

so much more stuck in my head these days, but i'm not sure that i have it in me to post it all... maybe i'll edit later

"believe me, there is a difference...
when you mean it
and when you pretend"

band-aids don't fix broken legs...
or anything really...
they cover up cuts and scrapes and make the healing process more comfortable to deal with...

but eventually the adhesive weakens,
the corners lift and peel...

and though it's degraded a bit and not as functional as when you first put it on...
it sticks to the skin and is still painful to remove
and you're left...
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and now for some astrological wisdom

SAGITTARIUS:
Because we are all, usually, surrounded by familiar sights and sounds and, because we often see the same people day in and day out, we assume we know all about what's going on. In fact, though, we have only the most vague, limited idea. Our ideas are like walls, designed to keep intruders at bay. They soon, though,...
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"100 Resolutions"

Where have I been all your life?
Sitting on fences, a novocaine for all the senses.
Another year will pass us by.
Making sense of nothing, in defense of something.
I laughed too late and dug myself into a grave.
This year I'll try not to think too much.
This year I'll try to stand up for myself.
This year I'll live like...
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"fulfillment just adds fuel to the blaze"

and

"what i chase won't set me free"

i'd sleep if my brain would shut up

"They painted up your secrets
With the lies they told to you
And the least they ever gave you
Was the most you ever knew

And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world gets in your way
What's the point in all this screaming
No one's listening anyway"

"anxiety, anxiety... you give me no mercy"

my brain can't take much more of it