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autumngirl

Wrightsville Beach, NC

Member Since 2005

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Tuesday Oct 03, 2006

Oct 3, 2006
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I suck. I never update this thing.
Problem is, I'm in the midst of a 28-day work streak without a single day off.
All I do is work. Work work work work work.

Then again, I did go to Costa Rica for a week in mid-September. It was strange to visit the exboyfriend in his home with his new, uh....girlfriend. I mean, seriously. You're 40. Don't you think it's time to stop fucking 23 year olds? I just felt awkward b/c I could see my old self in this girl and I wanted to shake her. Get her out for her own good. It was unsettling. On the other hand, it showed me how much I've grown in the last few years. Good for me. Other than that, Costa Rica was beautiful. I just didn't expect all the drug use and stuff. I'm no prude, but come ON. I'll get high every once in a while, but potheads get on my fucking nerves.
I got mildly electrocuted by touching the shower head.
A giant jumping tarantula got into the house one night.
It was my first time out of the country, my first plane ride, my first time on a horse, my first time on a motorcycle, etc. Pretty exciting!

I still don't have a 'real' job, but I've got some leads and a couple of interviews lined up.

I'm excited to do yoga teacher training starting January, but I don't know if I can really afford it. It'd be really good for me, though. I feel so stagnant b/c I'm not actively learning anything.

I might have to quit my current job soon, before I poison my boss. I have never wanted to destroy someone as much as this man. I'm far from alone; he's notoriously evil. There are probably hundreds of people all set to do a jig on his grave. I've certainly got my dancing shoes ready.

A girl I know hung herself a couple of days ago. I don't really want to get into it, but it breaks my heart that anyone should feel so alone, unwanted, unloved, whatever that they kill themselves. You have to be suffering pretty badly to want escape so desperately. I didn't know her that well; she was a relatively new bartender at work and only worked a couple of shifts, but I liked her a lot. And I'm really sad. And it has shaken me up a bit.

Man, all the bad things going on lately, something's got to turn around!

I'll post again when I have some good things to say. It's hard to update b/c I feel so robotic lately. It's time to make some changes.

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