So it's 5 am and I'm up... Had a crazy dream about an ex who I have not spoken to in awhile. We broke up on good terms but hurt like he'll so it has been 4 months I've been avoiding her just to protect myself emotionally. Crazy I was able to be around my first gf and her new woman not by choice but I had to and I sucked it up or I dealt because I drank and smoked to the point of reality separation. I still remember the anger and hurt I felt now after three years of healing time all three of us are tight. Soooo back to my dream, I dreamt I arranged to go visit her and talk when I did she had a gf, and not one in my opinion to be proud of. I guess it's telling me to talk to her and if she is with someone she is rip it off like a bandaid. After all I know we did not work she is gorgeous and I'm hooked on an unrealistic expectation.
