..i got up pretty early this morning.i just couldn't sleep for some reason.
Its something that i wouldn't mind making a habit of actually, i love the autumn season, and i especially love Autumn/ winter mornings.I hope that by getting into the habit of getting up early on my days of that i will actually make use of them.I have been back in Pembrokeshire for a few months now and i haven't done any photography since Norway.
This isn't helped by the fact that i don't have a digital camera yet, and there are no places to get my films developed here in Pembrokeshire that i know of...,which reminds me, i still need to get my fims from Norway developed. I guess i will have to send them off somewhere to be developed.
As i suggested, i am planning to get a new digital camera soon, i have nearly saved up enough money (one bonus of my horrible job)..I already have photoshop and a pretty decent p.c to run it on, so i should be able to indulge in some creativity again pretty soon, which is nice to know.
I am also feeling a bit better mentally, which is also nice...,its nice to know that i am pulling myself back together again after feeling apart and scattered for so long.I am by no means fixed, but its a start.
I think the greatest thing about it is that i am starting to feel more ambitious and creative again, and more confidant.
My mind is still pretty scatty though, i can't really think...,but then i think i can put that down to the night shifts...it rots your brain.haha.
Still don't think that i am ready for another relationship either.I found myself thinking about it the other day, and i am really not that interested at the moment.I want to be alone for a while, i am quite happy in my own company and i am enjoying finding out more about myself. It wouldn't be right for me, and it certainly wouldn't be fair on the person who got involved with me.It would take a very special person indeed for me to change my mind on that.Besides, i think that the odds of me meeting a lady of my ideal is fairly minimal here in pembrokeshire.
That said, it would be nice to meet some people here of similar interests.
With regards to what i have been doing as of late.., last night my brother came over and we all went out.
It was pretty wet and windy last night, and everyone seemed to be complaining about the weather except for me.I was actually quite fond of it...it wasn't cold, just damp, crisp and windy.Quite refreshing i thought.
My parents once again expressed their concern for my odd perspective.Much to my amusment.
The village was quiet, everyone was hiding away from the weather i think.I was the only one enjoying it.
We decided to go for a quick pint in the pub (or rather i should say 'a' pub.there are a few in saundersfoot).
My sister, looked alittle miserable, partly because she was unable to meet up with her new boyfriend that day due to irregular buses, party because she hates pubs.So i decided to cheer her up alittle by raiding the pubs music box with her, and polluting the pub with cheesy 80s goth rock. The expression on the sourfaced locals faces when 'this corrosion' by the sisters of mercy came on was enough to put a smile on anyones face.Well, everyone except the locals.okay, so just me and my sister.It was nice to see my brother again, despite his constant moaning about my hair style, or lack of style (i am trying to grow it again).He also noted his dislike for my Newcastle brown.
Okay...i need to go in to Tenby...,and this stupid internet keeps disconnecting, so i will finish this later i think.
Its something that i wouldn't mind making a habit of actually, i love the autumn season, and i especially love Autumn/ winter mornings.I hope that by getting into the habit of getting up early on my days of that i will actually make use of them.I have been back in Pembrokeshire for a few months now and i haven't done any photography since Norway.
This isn't helped by the fact that i don't have a digital camera yet, and there are no places to get my films developed here in Pembrokeshire that i know of...,which reminds me, i still need to get my fims from Norway developed. I guess i will have to send them off somewhere to be developed.
As i suggested, i am planning to get a new digital camera soon, i have nearly saved up enough money (one bonus of my horrible job)..I already have photoshop and a pretty decent p.c to run it on, so i should be able to indulge in some creativity again pretty soon, which is nice to know.
I am also feeling a bit better mentally, which is also nice...,its nice to know that i am pulling myself back together again after feeling apart and scattered for so long.I am by no means fixed, but its a start.
I think the greatest thing about it is that i am starting to feel more ambitious and creative again, and more confidant.
My mind is still pretty scatty though, i can't really think...,but then i think i can put that down to the night shifts...it rots your brain.haha.
Still don't think that i am ready for another relationship either.I found myself thinking about it the other day, and i am really not that interested at the moment.I want to be alone for a while, i am quite happy in my own company and i am enjoying finding out more about myself. It wouldn't be right for me, and it certainly wouldn't be fair on the person who got involved with me.It would take a very special person indeed for me to change my mind on that.Besides, i think that the odds of me meeting a lady of my ideal is fairly minimal here in pembrokeshire.
That said, it would be nice to meet some people here of similar interests.
With regards to what i have been doing as of late.., last night my brother came over and we all went out.
It was pretty wet and windy last night, and everyone seemed to be complaining about the weather except for me.I was actually quite fond of it...it wasn't cold, just damp, crisp and windy.Quite refreshing i thought.
My parents once again expressed their concern for my odd perspective.Much to my amusment.
The village was quiet, everyone was hiding away from the weather i think.I was the only one enjoying it.
We decided to go for a quick pint in the pub (or rather i should say 'a' pub.there are a few in saundersfoot).
My sister, looked alittle miserable, partly because she was unable to meet up with her new boyfriend that day due to irregular buses, party because she hates pubs.So i decided to cheer her up alittle by raiding the pubs music box with her, and polluting the pub with cheesy 80s goth rock. The expression on the sourfaced locals faces when 'this corrosion' by the sisters of mercy came on was enough to put a smile on anyones face.Well, everyone except the locals.okay, so just me and my sister.It was nice to see my brother again, despite his constant moaning about my hair style, or lack of style (i am trying to grow it again).He also noted his dislike for my Newcastle brown.
Okay...i need to go in to Tenby...,and this stupid internet keeps disconnecting, so i will finish this later i think.
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Current mood: sleepy
...wow, i feel like such a corpse today..,well more undead actually.At least i now know what it must feel like to be a zombie.Its weird, everythings hazy and i have no sense of focus at all.weird.Anyway....i have a few things to look forward to in the next couple of months, besides fuckin work.
Theres a halloween party at the queens hall in Narberth which i have found myself buying a ticket for...mainly out of bordom i think.I am trying to convince my brother to come, he's not really into rock and such anymore since he sold his left testicle to satan,BUT..he seems quite enthusiastic, perhaps hes as bored as me.I Wanted to dig out last years costume and go as an evil elf again, but i realised that i threw the costume away when i moved house last.bummer..., i think i still have the elf ears though. Not sure what i will do, i don't have the time to make another costume in between work and such, so it will be the topic of much thought over the next few weeks.Went on the Retribution site last night, there party looks really cool too..and they have hostile on the bottom floor, its a shame i can't make it
In November my brother and i are going to Berlin for the weekend
Where the F~~~ are you?! It's almost like you disappeared......
You still plannin to come back to the shire??
Ax