automatic_lover

This weekend failed. My boyfriend and I went to a party everything was wonderful I was getting drunk around good people. I don't know what happened it was like suddenly I couldn't breathe. Like someone sitting on your chest. I started having really severe sexual abuse flash backs . Its like it was happening all over again. I could feel the fear the panic. I lost touch with what was real it felt like it was never going to end. I could feel him my heart pounding. I started to cry and i just wanted to scream for help. I feel really alone about it and I feel like damaged goods.