alright so this is the continuation of the last post
i have the lowest self esteem ever...and i know everyone says that boys shouldnt be able to bring me down and that there are more important things in life to concern myself with...and i know...but im sad...so bear with me.
i dont understand why every good boy i meet is off limits...taken...an ex of a friend...something that keeps him out of my reach...and i REALLY hate that every time i think ive met this amazing guy, he turns out to be another absolute dirtbag. i thought i had met this great guy, we talked at length about nothing, great kisser, WEAK IN THE KNEES sexy..and then...to make a long story short...he changed his mind..and became a firm believer that im stuck in a 'highschool frame of mind' and that he didnt have time to put up with my bullshit...because i didnt want to have sex with him in my friends bed and leave her alone with his friend who she had never met...IM SO SORRY FOR BEING A FUCKING RESPECTABLE HUMAN BEING...and im very sorry that it lost me some sweet sweet lovin...and im sorry this dreamy boy turned out to be a jackass.
and then, the morning after mr. mcdreamy told me it was over...i found out that this girl i had missed out on killer sex for...had been sleeping with my ex...my first love...this boy who was my life for a long time and im just now learning to be stable without...and i was crushed even harder and more brutally then i had been the night before.
but i was even mad at her. i sat there and cried with her and told her i loved her and i didnt care and that it was in the past now and she had no reason to be worried about me being upset. which is true, but i could fucking kill HIM. fucking player asshole. i hope i never fucking see or hear from that bastard again. EVER
and i really hope that my mr right is around, at least someone who can make me feel like a princess for a while, and kick my lame self esteem issues in the fucking face
im sad
and its pointless
im sorry
i need a smoke
love love love
XO. Lou
i have the lowest self esteem ever...and i know everyone says that boys shouldnt be able to bring me down and that there are more important things in life to concern myself with...and i know...but im sad...so bear with me.
i dont understand why every good boy i meet is off limits...taken...an ex of a friend...something that keeps him out of my reach...and i REALLY hate that every time i think ive met this amazing guy, he turns out to be another absolute dirtbag. i thought i had met this great guy, we talked at length about nothing, great kisser, WEAK IN THE KNEES sexy..and then...to make a long story short...he changed his mind..and became a firm believer that im stuck in a 'highschool frame of mind' and that he didnt have time to put up with my bullshit...because i didnt want to have sex with him in my friends bed and leave her alone with his friend who she had never met...IM SO SORRY FOR BEING A FUCKING RESPECTABLE HUMAN BEING...and im very sorry that it lost me some sweet sweet lovin...and im sorry this dreamy boy turned out to be a jackass.
and then, the morning after mr. mcdreamy told me it was over...i found out that this girl i had missed out on killer sex for...had been sleeping with my ex...my first love...this boy who was my life for a long time and im just now learning to be stable without...and i was crushed even harder and more brutally then i had been the night before.
but i was even mad at her. i sat there and cried with her and told her i loved her and i didnt care and that it was in the past now and she had no reason to be worried about me being upset. which is true, but i could fucking kill HIM. fucking player asshole. i hope i never fucking see or hear from that bastard again. EVER
and i really hope that my mr right is around, at least someone who can make me feel like a princess for a while, and kick my lame self esteem issues in the fucking face
im sad
and its pointless
im sorry
i need a smoke
love love love
XO. Lou
yeh some guys suck
dont worry mr prince charming will arrive one day
probably when you least expect it