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today is my very best friends birthday
and theres a party at his house
and he never invited me

i woke up this morning to a phone call from my very dear friend's mom
saying that she didnt know where Britt was, and was wondering if i had heard from her
i saw her at work last night, leaving alone, and apparently she never went home
we called everyone
and she was nowhere
shes sick
with a drug problem
and so i was ready to just lose my fucking mind
when her mom found her passed out in the basement
so i spent my day there, while she slept, talking to her parents, deciding how to trick her into rehab
and then had to watch her cry and be sick as i told her that she was going to die unless she did what we were telling her to do
i love her, and im scared for her, this should be a trip.

and then i came home to a bunch of messages from other people at kevin's birthday
asking why i wasnt there
..and having to tell them he didnt invite me
and hes going to afghanistan soon and hes forgotten i exist because he was finally introduced to getting laid

im stressed and now im crushed
and im worried sick about britt
and i just want to sit down and cry for a day but i cant
because its exam time
i just want this all to be over
to leave everyone and start from scratch

107 days until ireland
like...3 weeks until san fran
anyone in san fran OR ireland care to make a date?
i'd love to make some new, worth while friends

XO. Lou

on the bright side...I GOT NIPPLE HOLES NOWWWWW
barbells
so hot
loves them