autobomb

i hate the army
hate hate hate hate it
i hate not getting who i want
or having to work for a boy
i hate suicide
i hated it before
but i hate it way more now
i hate any thought or reminder of it
i hate crying
i hate confusion
and not knowing up from down
i hate smoking
but i cant quit
i hate that i would be looked down on
if i developed a serious drinking problem
because i think that might fix me
maybe
i hate alot today
and yesterday
and probably tomorrow

ESPECIALLY if it keeps fucking snowing
okay
peace about

XO. Lou