autobomb

tonight i finally realized the impact of taking your own life.
i realized why it can never be taken lightly.
i wish there was something someone could have done to save you.
but i know youre in a better place.
happy.

i dont know why you did it.
but im sure you knew perfectly well.
and i am so fucking sorry i was as distant as i became.
id change it in a second if i could.
i dont know whether to be hysterical, or just mad at you.
for the pain everyone that loves you is in.

i promise, the second i get there we WILL have our coffee and cigarettes. and we WILL cuddle and bitch about how much love sucks.
promise me when the rest of our boys are overseas, that you will keep an eye on them.

i cant believe youre gone.
be good babe.


XO.Lou