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wow, lovin the new SG layout...

So my boyfriend is here for the week.

Should I feel guilty that we made whoopee in my friends living room when she had gone to bed?

Thats problem the first time I ever had sex where I could get caught by someone.
The past two days have contained so much snoggage that I still feel his lips sucking mine and i keep feeling pressure where he pressed against me (did I mention I am still sore? oh but don't worry, I did quite a number on him) Even though I am home now and he is staying at my friends house (my parents have issues about me and my boy, so he couldn't stay here)
I was sitting with him at my friend Andrews house and I almost went into tears knowing that at the end of the week he is going to have to leave me again and it will be months before I can see him again...Thats and my boy is meeting my parents this week....and my father has been such a dick. He almost refused to meet him cuz he thinks the way we have gone about our relationship is wrong. He said such mean things to me the other say pertaining to the subject. Such hurtful things.
It hurts so much that my father hates the person who makes me the happiest.
"How can you have fallen this deep for someone you really don't even know that well?"
How the fuck do you explain it? I asked Shawn (my boy) cuz he always knows what to say and he said "When you truly love somebody, you just know. No sense enters into it".
I DO know him. Body heart and soul I know him through and through, And I love him deeply. My feeling for him are more deep than I have felt for anyone of anything.

Why....why can't I just be happy with the one I love and not be hurting my family at the same time.
So yah, the relationship's circumstances are unusual. But I know what I feel. And despite what my father thinks it does not make me stupid. I can't help it I LOVE HIM! I FUCKING LOVE HIM!!!
And all I fucking want is, for once, I just want everything to be ok...please...just give me that...cuz I can't bare this....help...