I am at home. Sitting in front of the television. I haven't felt very productive in weeks. At work, at the gym, in life. I have been actively searching for a new job as I feel that this is the center of my stress and unhappiness. So far I have scheduled two interviews. I am optimistic. I no longer want to work with the catty small group of office women I deal with and my overly emotional, egotistical boss. I have always found myself in positions where the company is small or the unit starts to feel like a family. I am searching for something outside of that familiarity. I want to be able to go to work and just work. I don't mind the politics, in fact I enjoy playing. I love doing my work and doing it well which is why the petty drama of small offices where there is nothing better to do than complain about who stole your favorite pen is just draining. I want to find a position where I am no one on the grander scale of things. Where the work I do can be good and I can be proud but in the end I go home and the boss doesn't know my name, no one knows if I stole their stapler and I don't have to be bff's with the cubicle next to me. I want my work to matter, not my working relationships. This makes me sound rather antisocial I fear, which isn't true at all. I love jobs where I can cater to customers and I can be a social butterfly. I just don't enjoy staring at my cubicles walls for eight hours a day, trying to have real conversations with the same four petty women five days a week. I want more, I think I deserve more. I know I am capable of more. So, I am in search of it.
Hope you are all enjoying your Tuesday. <3
