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i slept in my own bed last night for the first time in months, it was depressing.

i really hate my life without ryan. i hate being here, i hate my house with a passion, i hate not having a group of friends to hang out with anymore...

being with ryan made me like my life, even when me and ryan may not have been getting along. but now, it's just back to the miserable bullshit life that i grew to loath so much in highschool.

i miss ryan.