i wish i had my hedgehog still, not just cause i miss him, but because that fake hedgehog set made me think of how cute a real hedgehog set would be. awww i miss sambuca.
ETERNAL SUNSHINE WAS SO GOOD. it was so nice to see it with ryan. after we saw it he was like 'okay, this is really cheesy, but i just want to lie in bed and hold you for hours.' aww. it made me realize that it doesn't matter how fucked up our relationship is, it doesn't matter how fucked up i am, it doesn't matter how much the people around us may think we shouldn't be together... because we have this insane intense love that i never thought i would ever feel for anyone, and we should treasure every little thing about it. i can see not liking that movie as much if i was single.
so i convinced ryan to come to van for a night while i am there, and we are totally going on a lame internet couple double date with Posh and d20. it's going to be pretty awesome. the critical mass of the very few degress of seperation the internet creates.
my mom is such a bitch. it went from 'you are dead to me, i won't talk to you and i won't ask you to do anything around the house.' to 'i am going to get you to do all this shit around the house and still be a huge bitch to you.'
definetly seems like i am getting the shit end of the stick in this deal.
I NEED TO MOVE OUT.
i need to get a job so i can move into ryan's house. it sucks though cause i pretty much live here already, and i have been waiting for ryan to say like 'you can just move in and start paying rent when you get a job.' but... he hasn't offered. so i have to stay in this fucking hellish limbo until i can find some real employment.
today i have to tell my mom i am not planning on finishing school for my certificate this year. she is going to fucking kill me. i wish i just didn't care at all what my mom thinks.... but she is the one and only thing in my life that stresses me out to this degree. bah.
me and ryan wanted to go to the sasquatch music festival, but it's the same weekend that he has to go home for his sister's grad, and now he is like 'i don't want to go to her dumb grad, this sucks.' which makes me really not want to come along. i wanted this to be something we looked forward to. and i am entirely sure his family would rather me not be there. god i never want to meet his mom.
so i think i want to go to bumbershoot... i really want to go to some fun music thing in washington.. but ryan will be away on his family cruise that weekend [as well as for our one year] so maybe i will try and find someone else to go with. ryan will be sad, but it's so much better than me sitting at home being depressed while he is away on a cruise for our anniversary.
ETERNAL SUNSHINE WAS SO GOOD. it was so nice to see it with ryan. after we saw it he was like 'okay, this is really cheesy, but i just want to lie in bed and hold you for hours.' aww. it made me realize that it doesn't matter how fucked up our relationship is, it doesn't matter how fucked up i am, it doesn't matter how much the people around us may think we shouldn't be together... because we have this insane intense love that i never thought i would ever feel for anyone, and we should treasure every little thing about it. i can see not liking that movie as much if i was single.
so i convinced ryan to come to van for a night while i am there, and we are totally going on a lame internet couple double date with Posh and d20. it's going to be pretty awesome. the critical mass of the very few degress of seperation the internet creates.
my mom is such a bitch. it went from 'you are dead to me, i won't talk to you and i won't ask you to do anything around the house.' to 'i am going to get you to do all this shit around the house and still be a huge bitch to you.'
definetly seems like i am getting the shit end of the stick in this deal.
I NEED TO MOVE OUT.
i need to get a job so i can move into ryan's house. it sucks though cause i pretty much live here already, and i have been waiting for ryan to say like 'you can just move in and start paying rent when you get a job.' but... he hasn't offered. so i have to stay in this fucking hellish limbo until i can find some real employment.
today i have to tell my mom i am not planning on finishing school for my certificate this year. she is going to fucking kill me. i wish i just didn't care at all what my mom thinks.... but she is the one and only thing in my life that stresses me out to this degree. bah.
me and ryan wanted to go to the sasquatch music festival, but it's the same weekend that he has to go home for his sister's grad, and now he is like 'i don't want to go to her dumb grad, this sucks.' which makes me really not want to come along. i wanted this to be something we looked forward to. and i am entirely sure his family would rather me not be there. god i never want to meet his mom.
so i think i want to go to bumbershoot... i really want to go to some fun music thing in washington.. but ryan will be away on his family cruise that weekend [as well as for our one year] so maybe i will try and find someone else to go with. ryan will be sad, but it's so much better than me sitting at home being depressed while he is away on a cruise for our anniversary.
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v0rge:
my other girlfriends were too stuck up on pregnancy to let me have sex with them without a condom even when on the pill, much less cum in them with one on. i have been neglected, will you help me? 
audioofambor:
haha no sorry... loving committed relationship here. good luck though 