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well, weekend with the father unit.

it was strange to say the least.

i think i was pretty much ignored the entire time there. i don't really know why, it was their idea to have me out there overnight. i wasn't even offered something to drink. fucking weird weekend. they had two friends over and spent the entire time yakking away and drinking.

i sat and watched tv and kept asking why the hell i was there.

sometimes i don't know why parents and children try so hard to maintain a relationship. i was pretty much abandoned by both parents at several times in my life and have since grown to forgive them and see them as human, but by the same token, there is no glue that keeps us together. i do this all to please them. to make them feel less guilt for their actions during my younger years.

i give up.

i have my family now with people i choose to love and who love me back.



anyways, on a happier note, there is a new Siv set up!! yay! that makes me happy. that girl is mad talented.

and you know who else is talented?

mr _V_. and i looooove him bunches. and miss him more.