This is depression and anxiety right here right now.
It's 10am on Wednesday morning, and it's 28 degrees Celsius. a hot Australian day.
Yet, I'm in bed crying. Why ? why aren't you outside enjoying this weather Aubrey ?
Here's what is currently going through my mind..
What's the point in going out ? you don't have any money. There's nowhere for you to go. you don't have any friends who will hang out with you. and the ones who would are at work.
You'd much rather just stay in bed and cry because let's face it Aubs you don't actually have a life and people hate you. you're annoying and clingy, you're always asking people for their company but they're always denying you, why ? cos you fucking suck.
Maybe I should just go for a short walk, at least I'll be outside..
Yeah but then you have to put on makeup and do your hair because you naturally, HA forget it. nobody wants to see that. and it's SO much effort.
and what's the point in going for a short walk ? you're not achieving anything. you're just gonna end up back home anyway.
But I really wanna go out and do something today...
I feel fucking TRAPPED by my own mind. I so badly want to go out right now. I need to and yet I feel like I can't. my depression and anxiety won't let me live.
I just want to start living.
