aubli

geh... i've become so bad about copying my lj posts to sg. the fact that i occassionally sneak an lj post at work (where i never even touch an sg page for fear of getting electronically busted) doesn't help.

but yeah - a couple quick updates, just the important bits:

- i auditioned for a really cool dance performance called 'moment of flight,' and got in as an understudy! we'll be running up the walls, matrix-style. read more about it here: ground zero dance company - 'moment of flight'

- yesterday i stepped on a rock the wrong way while jogging and sprained my ankle really badly. ugh. it's going to delay my training... am a bit put out about that, but i think it'll be okay. the actual performance isn't till spring, and i'm tough enough to catch up.

and today:

this day is laughably odd. you should have seen me struggling up the hill toward the rotunda, pre-breakfast, on my way towards newcomb and stephen. i was in good spirits but my body was tired and underfed and wanted to cry. is a funny thing, cause you feel your face start to contort and so you take a moment to rest and tell the body "tut tut, it's okay" and then you're fine again.

if nothing else, my arms will indeed get stronger. as one who walks just about everywhere i go, this is maddening. i will be crutching it quite a bit. random: crutches make my stomach look hot. yes, i was eying my reflection in some windows as i crutched past - there was precious little else to entertain myself with during my torturous progress. i'm really feeling the need to be amused lately, and i'm doing what i can to provide the diversion.

i don't really understand how the election went the way it did. i'm not a particularly political person, but mostly because i've always imagined that most people share the same basic values and ideals i do. i'm confused. it seems so clear that so many things have been going dreadfully wrong lately... do other people not think so? i understand apathy, and indecision, and confusion, and i've always thought that they made up the greatest part of any problem. but people are actively pursuing things that seem so wrong...

i'm very much reminded of my friend tara, who broke down crying after a conversation with her roommates about abortion, finding it hard to believe that people she held so dearly could argue vehemently for something that to her was clearly evil. i felt for her, but i couldn't comfort her very well because i share her roommates' views.

now i know even better how she felt. it's so baffling to know that it's not a problem of articulation; people truly have these conflicting beliefs, and there's no clear prevailing side. and it really does appear that they're irreconcilable.

you just keep asking yourself, "could they really have understood? did they really see where we're coming from and what we're fighting for and what we're fighting against, and still they chose the other side?" because all the while you hope that somehow, they didn't understand and really, you're on the same side. it's so hard to wrap your head around it otherwise. it's exactly the same fear and confusion i saw in tara.