atxjim

ok now, this is getting to be a bit much...
just rolled in last night from Daytona Beach (9 day vacation with the fiancee's family) ...
long and fucking scary drive (we did it straight thru) Her day is basically blind in one eye and has little to no depth perception and likes to drive fast... recipe for a multi hour panic attack for me... ugh....
anyway, the day before i come back a friend of mine calls me to tell me our friend Mike killed himself ... we were pretty good friends a few years ago when he moved to town, used to work together at Emo's ... I knew he had been doing pretty poorly (too much partying.. to the point where it ceases to be partying and starts to be something else... been there) .. his marriage went wrong a while back .. I hadn't seen him in a couple months don't know much about what went on; but let me be selfish here and say that I AM GETTING TIRED OF THIS SHIT. 3 friends have killed themselves since february...and a good few more have done so or otherwise died in the last year or two. I can't even be very surprised anymore... just this sort of hollow sadness and kind of a really dull emotional ache.....
anyway, Here's to ya Mike.. this town will miss you..I hope you aren't hurting anymore.....