Wednesday Sep 12, 2007

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The trip to philly was nice, mandatory even. my post partum depression was in full swing. got verbally abused by the coffee shop fellows, which is nice. Then made the mistake of reading a year old article about the impending oil crash.

the dreams came back. not so much nightmares, just bad enough dreams that upon waking, i wanted nothing more than to sink back into oblivion... until 2pm when i cant.

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in case you dont know, oil crash is pretty much the scariest scenario in my head right now. not gradual depletion of oil, but oil crash, so that theres no more oil for anyone but the very rich and the army. which means not only no new ipods or jobs, but a lot less food (since we grow food with petroleum) and basic things like clothes, and a real lockdown on utilities so that the internet, tv and radio dont exist anymore. picture hurricane katrina, but on a global scale and without so much water. picture a starving world of stranded zombies.

that, and strangely, rats. I keep telling myself that if the crash comes badly, im a weak nerd with poor eyesight, one snap of my eyeglasses and i will be picked off in short order, in the first round. perhaps i will be food for the second round. this in a sour milk way, comforts me. im a poor artist, and not much will change that, so even if i could spend all my time and resources preparing, it probably wouldnt be enough.

but really, its an excuse to not do what i need to do. because this uprooting really has unsettled me.

everything is taking longer than expected. who knew that in new york internet is almost completely monopolized. well, probably someone who did research. oh.

heading home, to reedit my reel and my non-idiot job resumes.

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huzzah:
Ugh. I know. I can't figure out how I'm going to afford UArts.. but it's the only school I was even close to interested in. And they apparently WAY over accepted the fall semester... hence, why I'm stuck in this goddamn town until January.

And yeah, I'll figure it out freshman year. Hopefully if I end up wanting to transfer, it'll be in Philly.. because I'm absolutely IN LOVE with that city. But I plan on working with jewelry and metal.. so if you have any info on that, do share!
weefenian:
I plan on someday heading back to ireland, but i'll probably be stuck here for atleast the next 2 or 3 years. Somebody Shounds a little HomeShick? You know, they say it takes no less than two years before you can begin to feel at home in a new place. You haven't started markin the days on your bedroom wall or anything have you?

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