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I really hate people here. It would take me far more time to explain my deep loathing for the people I spend 24/7 than I care to spare at the moment. Needless to say that people are so set in their cliches that they don't allow new people to be included. Fuck, I'm not even new. I've been here three months strong and apparently that is not good enough. I'm a nice guy (I think anyways) and I guess I have to be an outsider while I'm here. See this is the shit that is stressing me out. This is the shit that I have to deal with on a daily basis.

Oh and by the way I've given up on trying to get help from those around me because it doesn't do any good. No one in my chain of command or on base has been any help to me. No help has been given to me and no guidance so now I'm back to resorting to bottling everything up. Everything is going to be kept to myself because when I try to get help the Army has it in their infinite wisdom to do nothing. It is so frustrating.

Time to put on a "happy" mask and make it look like nothing is wrong. I hate my fuckin life and I hate the Army. I can see why so many soldiers commit suicide, get divorces or end up going AWOL.

Fuck this shit.