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So lets try this again.

To answer some of your pressing questions.. no I did not remember what I was going to say in today's original blog but suffice it to say I have new thoughts on my mind to put to paper. So here we go:

66 Days. The number is winding down like the last few seconds on the clock in the final round of a gameshow. Every day makes it a little more real for me. The littlest things are making me think about what is to come when I leave. A movie, a commercial or a song can set me off. Its not a good or a bad thing. It just depends on the moment. Today has been a down day; not just because of the future but just things in general.

I am so sick of waiting. Because all waiting does is invites my mind to think about life. All I've done for the past three years is eek by just enough to survive.. financially, emotionally and mentally and now the chance is here for me to exceed just the minimum.

I'm lacking the friends I need right now. The people I need to call up on the phone and talk to.. I'm not looking for a hand out or a shoulder to cry on. Just real people that can respond and have a conversation unlike some that insist on mimicking brick walls with their ability to respond to simple conversations.

Sometimes I hate the world.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. My sister will be in down thursday and friday. I get to see my nephew who I have not seen for a year and meet her new husband, which I hear is a great guy.

Here's to good dreams tonight and a good day tomorrow. Tomorrow marks 65 days left. Time is runnin out