Its been a week since my lost post so let me bring you boys and girls up to speed:
Currently I am in Des Moines, living the grand life... and by grand life I mean living in the furnished basement, playing WoW, sleeping late and waiting to start my new day job. Which I hope is next week because the amount of free time I have is pretty much crushing my will to live. At least I have DirectTV, oh the movies I have watched in the last four days... amazing.
In other news, the girl situation is up in the air. I had a brief talk with her the night that I left and pretty much told her that I'm there for her no matter what. And that me moving is not an end to anything. She is going through a rough break up along with some other personal matters that are more important to her than some silly relationship. I know in my heart that its not right to push any agenda or relationship on her at this time so I'm not going to. Although it has been hard to pick up the phone and call her this week just to even say hello and see how her day is going. I'm not sure why but even 40 miles difference can make it that much harder to do the simple things you were doing a week ago.
A large part of me wants to distance myself from the life I had in Ames altogether. The logical part of me is telling me that this is a chance to start my life over and become something more than I was before. As much as it scares me, I know that this is the right mentality to have going into the next month to six months. Just wish I wasn't doing it alone is the thing. Even though I live with two other people they have jobs and I pretty much just see them at nights, but once I start working I hope that by throwing myself into my work the days will pass more quickly and more opportunities will make themselves evident to me.
Besides that drama bullshit in my life, things are going well. I've been recovering from a bad mix of allergies and a cold, which is just the greatest concoction that I want to experience right now when I'm trying to get shit done. I hope by Monday I'll feel better and can feel more motivated to get off my giraffe ass and do something with my days. But at least its giving me time to work on my writing, which I'm happy to report is going swimmingly.
Hopefully all of you kiddies are taking care of yourselves.
Currently I am in Des Moines, living the grand life... and by grand life I mean living in the furnished basement, playing WoW, sleeping late and waiting to start my new day job. Which I hope is next week because the amount of free time I have is pretty much crushing my will to live. At least I have DirectTV, oh the movies I have watched in the last four days... amazing.
In other news, the girl situation is up in the air. I had a brief talk with her the night that I left and pretty much told her that I'm there for her no matter what. And that me moving is not an end to anything. She is going through a rough break up along with some other personal matters that are more important to her than some silly relationship. I know in my heart that its not right to push any agenda or relationship on her at this time so I'm not going to. Although it has been hard to pick up the phone and call her this week just to even say hello and see how her day is going. I'm not sure why but even 40 miles difference can make it that much harder to do the simple things you were doing a week ago.
A large part of me wants to distance myself from the life I had in Ames altogether. The logical part of me is telling me that this is a chance to start my life over and become something more than I was before. As much as it scares me, I know that this is the right mentality to have going into the next month to six months. Just wish I wasn't doing it alone is the thing. Even though I live with two other people they have jobs and I pretty much just see them at nights, but once I start working I hope that by throwing myself into my work the days will pass more quickly and more opportunities will make themselves evident to me.
Besides that drama bullshit in my life, things are going well. I've been recovering from a bad mix of allergies and a cold, which is just the greatest concoction that I want to experience right now when I'm trying to get shit done. I hope by Monday I'll feel better and can feel more motivated to get off my giraffe ass and do something with my days. But at least its giving me time to work on my writing, which I'm happy to report is going swimmingly.
Hopefully all of you kiddies are taking care of yourselves.
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zepp:
i like luigi!!!!!!