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Have you ever come across an instance where you feel completely ignored by everyone around you, even close friends? As if you didn't exist and their lives (as trivial as they are) are more important than what is going on in yours? I'm not to say that my live is more important than others, but I have come to realize that at this stage in my life I need dedicated, passionate people to help me more than any other time in my life.

And right now, there is no one I can really say that I can constantly depend on when I need them, and to me that is really sad.

For those that are trying to place catch up with the life of Marcus...

I'm 23, almost 24, and I'm not in school, but only have one class until I have my diploma. I work at a bar 5 nights a week and I had an OWI this April which means I cannot drive right now. I suffer from maniac depression and anxiety.

Welcome to my life World, I hope you enjoy your stay. My family has cut their losses, so to speak, and will not help me whatsoever with my problems or finances. I suppose that is fair, I really could care less what they think. I'm an adult and I'm not living for them but for myself.

Although it does make me sad when friends online and in real life take me for granted and don't really acknowledge what I sacrifice and give up for them. I listen to a lot of problems that my friends have and I really don't get any mutual respect or consideration at all. That really hurts and I have no one to turn to.

Sigh. I don't know what tomorrow is going to bring and I think that adds to my insomnia. I don't want to wake up and see what fate has in store. Its scary.