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Capdown//Faith No More

bloody hell, a week since i last updated! i guess i'd better get on with this hey? you've probably all forgotten i exist

well, i've finally returned home, albeit dishevelled and tired. i've just been to the hospital for an mri scan. not the nicest of things to experience, let me tell you. what seems like a week of your life, is taken up layed down in a large machine, with only an alarm button for company. machine gun-like noise shatters through your head, accompanied by exhausting heat. lying as still as is humanly possible, you try and escape into a happier place, but you are jolted back as the louder noises scream. you can almost feel the magnetic pulses knifing their way through you as you're slowly moved headlong into the machine. lasting only for 45 minutes, this seems like an eternity.



well, that's over now, but only for 15 hours or so, as i'm back at the hospital tomorrow, for yet more tests. maybe i should just move in there

not muhc has been happening in my life as of this moment. since last monday, all i seem to have been doing is work, eat, and sleep. i even worked on my day off last wednesday, because we were short-staffed... yet again.

things with the girl (zoe), didn't go too well last week. i hardly saw her, and the times i did see her, i wimped out of even talking to her really. i get the impression she thinks i'm kind of wierd. she talks to me yeah, but i think i just confuse her, mostly (i tend to ramble when i talk to someone i find attractive... hey, don't we all!)

and after all this... something happened last saturday night...
not with zoe tho ...... i decided to hit the town with my friend matt, who i work with, and his friend pete. I'd taken some tramadol at work, so i was kinda stupid going out on the juice. but it was an impulse thing. so we went to visage, and pete bought me some shots, which i could hardly refuse. i was on the double vodkas too, which made matters worse. anyway, i bumped into a girl i knew from high school, who i havent seen in nearly 5 years. she was hott before, but she is just the hottest now. we got talking, and she gave me her number, saying that we should go for a drink sometime! she also said she drop in and see me at work sometime this week, but she hasn't been in today, and i'm off tomorrow, so she better not come in then. but i can't help but think she thinks im a complete fool. we shared a taxi home, and i got out first. after paying the driver up until i got out, i smacked my head on the door frame thingy, and drunkenly stumbled out and kinda fell into the street. im hoping she found this funny, and not embarrassing! we'll soon see, anyway, because she just won't come into work and see me.

i hate myself sometimes.

since all that happend with the girl i know from high school, me and zoe seem to be getting on pretty well. she has no idea about my dream, or anything, and every time i look round to her, she seems to be staring at me. wether it's a look of contempt or not, i'm still trying to fathom. and today, we were messing around and she kept touching my hands, and calling me cute ......it never rains, but it damn well pours, eh!

and also a big thankyou to Mr Icantplayguitar for sending me some anti-bush stickers all the way from Memphis. you rock dude.

oh i won 10 at work last saturday for selling the most stuff.

righty-ho. i'm going to eat a muffin.

lovings and lovings and lovings

*ps. Chase's set is haaaawwwwwt