*now playing: Underoath: Alone in December
Hello to everyone
i must apologise for not updating my journal since saturday, and not posting comments in everyone's journals. i've just felt kinda off really. im better now tho... i think.....?
yesterday, i found out one of my best friend's dad had just died of cancer. i feel so helpless because he's in Hong Kong n im here.
went out last night into leeds, it was a very spontaneous night. just got a call n decided to go out. we checked out dry dock, and fab. dry dock was rather busy (all the troublesome freshers
), so we hit up Fab next. ive never been before but its a pretty cool bar with loadsa retro toys n stuff in cabinets, arcade machines scattered around, and a huge missile above the bar 
i got rather drunk, and decided to drink everyone else's drinks cus they couldnt finish them. i then proceeded to eat about 5 packets of crips (chips for those of u across the pond) to kind of fill me up. boy did i regret that. we had the bumpiest taxi ride home, and, needless to say, i was incredibly 
when i got out.
had the shittiest day today. i dont know wether it was the hangover or what, i just felt really down. i hate it when i get like that, cus nothing can cheer me up do u ever feel like u just cant be bothered with anything? and that nothings right at the moment? thats how i feel. i spoke to my mum today, n she kinda helped me. apparently i need to 'creatively visualise' my goals. and i also have a couple of mantras.. 1: There is always a new and better way for me to experience life. I forgive and release the past. I move into joy..... 2: In my world I am my own authority. For I am the only one who thinks in my mind.
i have to repat those as often as possible. aren't mums great?
i decided earlier that im guna do some volunteer work while my job search is on, just to get me in the working zone. i really wanna help do something at an animal rescue center, or a vets surgery. anything to do with animals will do.
while i was out biking the other day, i met up with some other riders, and i met a grrl trials rider..! u may not find this shocking, but when u consider there are only 4 girls who compete in the UK, its pretty cool. she's way better than me too! putting me to shame in fact..! and she's like, 4/5 years younger than me too.
i really didnt exercise my right to speak like a pirate on sunday, well not enough really. i guess ill just have to wait until next year 
that's all for now
lovings to everyone
*update: my friend who's dad just passed away has been admitted to rehab for heroin. this day just gets fucking better
Hello to everyone
i must apologise for not updating my journal since saturday, and not posting comments in everyone's journals. i've just felt kinda off really. im better now tho... i think.....?
yesterday, i found out one of my best friend's dad had just died of cancer. i feel so helpless because he's in Hong Kong n im here.
went out last night into leeds, it was a very spontaneous night. just got a call n decided to go out. we checked out dry dock, and fab. dry dock was rather busy (all the troublesome freshers
), so we hit up Fab next. ive never been before but its a pretty cool bar with loadsa retro toys n stuff in cabinets, arcade machines scattered around, and a huge missile above the bar i got rather drunk, and decided to drink everyone else's drinks cus they couldnt finish them. i then proceeded to eat about 5 packets of crips (chips for those of u across the pond) to kind of fill me up. boy did i regret that. we had the bumpiest taxi ride home, and, needless to say, i was incredibly when i got out.
had the shittiest day today. i dont know wether it was the hangover or what, i just felt really down. i hate it when i get like that, cus nothing can cheer me up
do u ever feel like u just cant be bothered with anything? and that nothings right at the moment? thats how i feel. i spoke to my mum today, n she kinda helped me. apparently i need to 'creatively visualise' my goals. and i also have a couple of mantras.. 1: There is always a new and better way for me to experience life. I forgive and release the past. I move into joy..... 2: In my world I am my own authority. For I am the only one who thinks in my mind.
i have to repat those as often as possible. aren't mums great?
i decided earlier that im guna do some volunteer work while my job search is on, just to get me in the working zone. i really wanna help do something at an animal rescue center, or a vets surgery. anything to do with animals will do.
while i was out biking the other day, i met up with some other riders, and i met a grrl trials rider..! u may not find this shocking, but when u consider there are only 4 girls who compete in the UK, its pretty cool. she's way better than me too! putting me to shame in fact..! and she's like, 4/5 years younger than me too.
i really didnt exercise my right to speak like a pirate on sunday, well not enough really. i guess ill just have to wait until next year
that's all for now
lovings to everyone
*update: my friend who's dad just passed away has been admitted to rehab for heroin. this day just gets fucking better
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That's brilliant you want to do volunteer work, it'll be really rewarding, though it's always hard to see animals in distress. I'm sure you'll love it though.
In answer to your question, yes I do find it hard, amazingly so, even when I'm pissed, and hence, this is why I'm single! I think me and you need to find ourselves some lovely girl/boy to cheer us up! I've been single for way to long now, very bored.
Hope things look up for you soon boy
I don't understand why you are single though, you're just too cute!
Those northern girls don't know what they're missing! hehe