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Tuesday Sep 07, 2004

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We seem to keep circling like wolves, she and I, warily watching for the other to be the heartbreaker, to go for the kill. I have an extremely poor track record when it comes to long term relationships and she knows this and anticipates that this attachment will dwindle much like those in my past. I keep wondering exactly what I have to offer beyond my deeds; can I get by on actions alone, when I have so little of myself to give?

Our worlds do not cross and we have few shared subjects of conversation, but are initial common interests really the things that keep a couple together?

No matter whose bed we share, it is more comfortable with the other in it when we sleep and more exciting when our passions take control. Is physical chemistry and comfort enough?

In romantic relationships prior, I would have struck by now. I would have taken all I could in my metaphorical jaws, ripped into her and scampered away with my own heart intact. We have reached a level of familiarity that normally takes months. I have left myself unguarded with her too often and she can anticipate my moves. She has a grip on my heart and my animal reaction is to bite into hers before she can do the same.

We are familiar with each other, but the relationship is young enough that we do not fully yet trust the other, not with something so precious as a heart, which wounds easily and heals slowly.

And yet, despite all this, I'm willing to take the risk this time, to carry it through until the end because this, the relationship, has the potential to last. We can build a history and can develop common interests and hobbies together. No more circling, no more waiting for the bite to come, I'm ready to run with her and go the distance together.
ironstein:
WTF!!! I have so little of myself to give - what more can you give that your heart, trust and love??? What more can be expected??

Give yourself some credit, mate. You strike me as being a beautiful person - don't belittle what you are bringing to the table, as it were. If you can't appreciate what you have to offer - how can you expect someone else to appreciate it??

As to risking your heart - risking nothing gains nothing and while hearts may be broken - they do mend smile

Thus endeth my lesson haha

Cheers from downunder
Sep 7, 2004

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