attackbrad

wow i havent posted in a while last week was crazy i was kinda busy but here is the skinny one of my best friends came in to town he has spent the last 10 years hitch hicking at first i was happy to see him then being around him mad me sad i think he is getting that wet brain thing from drinking the guy cant even do the simplest of things on his own he coul not even make make and cheese it makes me feel bad for him and it makes me feel bad about my self cuz i dont want to see my friend like that and when we see some we dont like we tend to turn our backs on it but i cant to that to my friends that was the first part of my week after a few days hanging with him i had to go fill out some paper work for a new job now i work for the cencus its a good paying job and i think it will me fun walking around the getto of akron asking people all that cencus crap then i when to a party and it turned into another lets hook brad up party but this time they found a kick ass girl that i would get down with she rocks she is about every thing i could ever want ive spent a lot of time with her since we met we get a long great but i find my self pushing away and i dont know why all i can do is think about this girl right now all i want to do is go to pizza hut and say hi and grab some food so i can have her be my sever and spent just a littel time with her till she comes back over tonight my roomate said that when i was with her it was the first real smile she has seen on me in a year and a half so why do i want to push my self away