i'm starting to have serious doubts about my current relationship. jen's a pretty cool girl, and the sex is awesome .. but at this point i dunno if we'd still be together if the sex wasn't as awesome.
i've documented our drama a little, but essentially she seems to be very insecure about us and demanding at the same time, subtly.. and i think i've reached my limit for it.
during the stay at her parents over the christmas holiday, she randomly yelled at me for reading the news on my iphone after she got out the shower. it wasn't a little "get off your butt, i need some help" .. it was enough to get me to go silent for a good 20mins while i figured out how to respond. it killed the happy vibe of the trip.
20mins home from that trip she spazzed out 'cause i got an email notice from someone on suicidegirls friending me. initially i thought she was faking being upset, but it turned out she was seriously pissed 'cause i might be secretly messaging sg girls... or something.
two weeks later ... i'd say i've been told about 2-4 "bad dreams" about us breaking up or something vaguely bad about us.
we just send in notices about ending our tenancies in 2 months time, cause we are (were?) planning on getting a place together... and today after saying how awesome places she had found were, i got passive/aggressive comment for referring to my future yard as "mine" in a vague plan regarding planting a tree. i meant 'mine' as an owner and not renter, and she assumed i meant it be some kind of single status indicator.
later in the afternoon i randomly messaged her about a subject that had been bugging me, that would affect our daily lives in an insignificant way short term; and long term really bug me. i figured i'd try to talk about it again for the third time, and was shut down. it's not even a big deal, but now it seems like one?
i uh .. just dunno at this point. i love her, but i'm starting to resent her i think 'cause she's got no life outside of mine at this point and i'm either working or with her .. 24/7. i find it hard to make time for my hobbies and i don't find her very supportive when it comes to my desire to start my second career.
we seem to be very different people, and my easy going nature is why we're together.
i've documented our drama a little, but essentially she seems to be very insecure about us and demanding at the same time, subtly.. and i think i've reached my limit for it.
during the stay at her parents over the christmas holiday, she randomly yelled at me for reading the news on my iphone after she got out the shower. it wasn't a little "get off your butt, i need some help" .. it was enough to get me to go silent for a good 20mins while i figured out how to respond. it killed the happy vibe of the trip.
20mins home from that trip she spazzed out 'cause i got an email notice from someone on suicidegirls friending me. initially i thought she was faking being upset, but it turned out she was seriously pissed 'cause i might be secretly messaging sg girls... or something.
two weeks later ... i'd say i've been told about 2-4 "bad dreams" about us breaking up or something vaguely bad about us.
we just send in notices about ending our tenancies in 2 months time, cause we are (were?) planning on getting a place together... and today after saying how awesome places she had found were, i got passive/aggressive comment for referring to my future yard as "mine" in a vague plan regarding planting a tree. i meant 'mine' as an owner and not renter, and she assumed i meant it be some kind of single status indicator.
later in the afternoon i randomly messaged her about a subject that had been bugging me, that would affect our daily lives in an insignificant way short term; and long term really bug me. i figured i'd try to talk about it again for the third time, and was shut down. it's not even a big deal, but now it seems like one?
i uh .. just dunno at this point. i love her, but i'm starting to resent her i think 'cause she's got no life outside of mine at this point and i'm either working or with her .. 24/7. i find it hard to make time for my hobbies and i don't find her very supportive when it comes to my desire to start my second career.
we seem to be very different people, and my easy going nature is why we're together.
I honestly cannot believe that after all this time, she is still insecure.