atomicant

so things are moving on. my parents were in town this weekend, which was an unexpected coincidence. to those of you that know me, i am a total momma's boy, and i had a chance to have a long and helpful conversation with her about the whole situation. it was nice to have her perspective, because i know my mom always has my best interests at heart, and she's always willing to just listen.

but, other than that, things are going well. i went into a bit of a hermit stage for a few days, eschewing most human contact and even spending untold hours in a catatonic haze in my bed. it was sad and pathetic, but therapeutic in the end. fuck you, don't judge.

things are getting better, and the situation is nearly over. schmelectra will be moving to her new fantastic studio (care of the lovely and talented cosi) this week, and we will both have our space to start healing and transitioning to a friendship. she's great and i still care and love her, and i won't let her stop being a part of my life.

the past few weeks have been trying. there have been a lot of emotions flying, and some hurtful words and actions. i'm not particularly proud of some of the things i have done, but i never meant to intentionally harm anyone. mostly i just wasn't thinking about anyone but myself. not a proud moment, but still. it is what it is. but i'm ready to move on.

so, to everyone that was worried about me, thanks. sorry if i have been difficult to get in touch with, but i am moving back into the world at large. so watch the fuck out, assholes. i'm coming for you.