atomheartmother

...ugh...and so begins what will hopefully not be the two hardest weeks of my life. should anyone have to deal with this? no. so why am i?

...must...write...better...journal entries.

listening to: black09

loooooooooooooooonger day

suprised i haven't had a heart attack yet. i always forget that working in a bar in a college town during the last week of semester is a bad fucking idea. can't sleep again. too much coffee and drama. i wish i could sleep throught the next two weeks. maybe i'll get some pills in my stocking...

listening to: Romulus~Remus

looooooooooooooooooooong day...

listening to: a train go by my house

long night...lots of booze...working...
tried to sleep in a foriegn bed with all of the foriegn smells and a new woman. felt wrong. kept my hands to myself (good boy!)...i'm not ready.
again, what have i gotten myself into? headache...

listening to: my heartbeat.

shitfuckcrap. what the hell am i getting myself into?! AHHHHH! at least things are okay while i'm here doing my radio show.

listening to: Creation is Crucifixion
next up: Acid Mothers Temple

...nice mix, eh?

oh yeah. i was finally able to fix my big-ass headphones! hooray! no more tiny, tinny earbuds! no more being forced to listen to other people's conversations on the bus!
WOO!

coming to the realization (again) that i have been relying on another person for my sense of self-worth. why the hell do i keep slipping into that foxhole? i'm 30, f'chrissakes. you'd think i'd have that shit figured out by now.

feeling pretty good today. and cute. haven't felt like that in a while.

listening to: Muslimgauze

maybe more later.

feeling better. staying up until eight in the morning playing video games with friends always helps.

listening to: Dalek

g'nite

i wish i could find you

the melodrama came to an abrupt end yesterday. how are you supposed to take a break from a break? i guess i'll know in a while.