so things have been ok with me lately. things are good at work, I should be getting a nice paycheck next week, so I'm pretty happy about that. personal life is not going so good though. I'm feeling very isolated. I went out with a bunch of friends last night, told them I had kind of gotten some fucked news just before I came and all they did was pick on me. Normally, I'm more than happy to take it and dish it out back, cause thats the kind of guy I am. But I was really not in the mood for it last night. It sucked. ah well though, I'll go out with different friends tonight.

A good friend of mine told me last night that she was fucking miserable, and has been for a little while. I feel terrible about that, cause she's got real problems and they're really stressing her out. I'd like to help her out, cause thats the kind of guy I am, but she refuses to accept my help. she just likes me to cheer her up, but its hard to cheer her up when she clearly needs help to get out of her jam and she won't let me do anything. it sucks.

Its all rainy and shit out right now. I'm listening to the cure hanging out online. There was a bunch of shit I was supposed to take care of today, but I think I'll blow it all off and just hang out around my house. maybe watch a movie or read a book. then go out for beers/pool later.

edited to add: i just cheered that girl up by suddenly whipping my cock out and showing it to her using my webcam. and that cheered me up because I can now say my penis can satisfy a women up to three timezones away. and it definetly proves my theory that the greatest social application of the internet lies in its ability to distribute sexually explicit material. it is a good day.