atomh8

ok, so I'm going to warn everyone in advance that if they don't want to hear any more of my self-inflective musings they should probably not continue to read this entry.

anyways, i'm leaving for montreal later on this morning. Its been a pretty deep week off or so for me. I've had alot of time to think about where I'm at in life, specifically given the events of the last year or so. In the last little while I've had my heart broken into a thousand pieces, been scammed out of thousands of dollars, wasted an immeasurable amount of time, realized i no longer have close ties to anyone (friends or family), and consequently, have come to realize that I cannot count on anyone but me.

This might all sound bad, but I don't think it is. Its made me a better person. stronger, you know. for all the whining I might do, and all the things I would've done differently in my life, I'm still walking around as one of the luckiest people I know. I'm more comfortable with myself than I have ever been before. I wouldn't go as far as saying I'm some kind of great guy that everyone should love (in fact, i don't see how anyone benefits from being around me save for the fact I'm an occasional good time). All's I'm saying is that I'm good enough for me.

So anyways, the next time I log on here hopefully I'll be using some high speed type shit in mtl so I can chat away with you guys. Thanx for listening.

oh, and your my boy hubs.