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ugh. I hate it when I do this, but to anybody who doesn't feel like listening to some self-indulgent whining thats really unwarranted, do not continue reading this journal entry.







Ok, I'm going to assume that you care......or are to curious to stop.

Anyways, I haven't been feeling particularly well lately. I don't think I have a good reason to feel this way, but I do, and its resulting in a loss of sleep and its really hurting my grades. At this point, I do not think it is possible for me to get into grad school, which is bumming me out even more cause lately its been sounding like a better option for me. My life just feels very......stagnant right now. And whats worse, I don't feel that I'm in a position to change it. The only thing I can make a change in right now would be quitting my job, which I would regret because it is a good job and I have no doubt that whatever I got to replace it would suck and I'd hate it. But there isn't exactly anything going on with me to make me happy these days, and I think thats sad....

So anyways, what does everyone think about that? Do other people feel like this? Does anyone have advice?

I'd like to go out drinking tonight, but there isn't really anybody I feel like going out to see and theres not really anywhere I want to go. I'm supposed to go visit a friend in toronto tomorrow night, but I don't even want to do that. Its nothing against her, but I don't think that she'll be there for me the way I need her to be right now, and it'll probably just make me feel worse about the whole thing.

And to top everything off, whining about stuff like this makes me feel even worse, cause I hate complaining when I don't have anything legitimate to complain about. :blackeye

Oh well, as my personal hero lilyk pointed out, happy b-day owen!!!