atmospherik1

I am like the lone wolf scowering the concrete landscape in search of a destination. I am timmid and anxious but at the same time I know what I must do & I know what I want but don't know how quite to reach it. Long gone should be the days of misplacement and blending into the background. too many ups and downs, ins and outs. "i'm trying to find a balance I want to find a balance"
"round and round, upside down , living my life underneath the ground. Hardly heard from and ever seen"-Slug
I swear there are so many lines that I could refernce from that guy on a day to day basis; good and bad. He is a creative mofo. Like so many others I'll have to introduce myself one day. I know from experience that a lot of things are more overwhelming for me then others. Say it's like their second nature then it's like my fourth nature. It is how things unfolded, situations, surroundings, myself in the past years whether controlled or not. The plight of the subconscious pessimist. But the upside is that I have my focus. It's just taking a lot out of me and a lot from me to work through things that a majority of people don't experience (that I've met anyways). But enough of that. Back to focus; i'll keep the balance. I always feel obligated to put good things here but that's not always the way either. Haa haa. I don't know why I feel obligated by an internet journal. At this point of my life I like more to comment and relate and give then to tell. But if you're having trouble letting down some walls and building bridges then sometimes there is nothing to tell. Except maybe for the same old shit. And some other lines come to mind " This girl was like you gott a lot of walss. You don't show people shit. Nah, don't mistake that.. don't mistake that. It's not like that, I just don't like motherfuckers.. there arent' too many motherfuckers I like.. you one of em. I hope that's enough" First time I heard this it made me laugh. I'm not trying to alienate my self but it's that way sometimes.
So later i'm gonna go to a bar with my pops, have a few drinks and after that, well probably nothing. There aren't too many options surrounding me for this halloween. So I'll probably just enjoy the simple things. Happiness. Next week is Revolutions!! Fuck yeahs; I can't wait. Im seeing it in the Imax theatre. 8 story video screen. It's gonna be cahrassssy. I'm such a fanatic. Now since I've been in this philosophy of religion class I see more things in the matrix movies. There's mor recognition. I get more out of it. Not that I got little out of a before. So I think I gave a jaded negative feel before this but that's what was on my mind. So you people go rule your halloween, tear up the streets and live it up. For real.
I think I need to strike up conversation with a few more people on here ehh. I'll make the effort. I have too much blank space.
Here's my start. Hey there.

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Underground is the sickest, illest, dopest, radest, coolest( & every other tern used) tonyhawk proskater game made. I rented it, so fuckin fun. I was suprised that they had all these indie mcs on the soundtrack Murs, Living Legends, Mr. Dibbs, Cannibal Ox, Mr. LIf, & no sluggo. It even has Alkaline Trio. Nice!! The drop in from any where trick is my favorite. Yes, Hell yes.