atmospherik1

I have bad social phobia. I have no job. I don't really have any friends that I hang out with. I have one class in school. I press on as hard as I can and as hard as I'm capable of to do what I want to do and have a life.
But being slaughtered with panic attacks day in and day out is; well it's very hard. This is why i'm jaded. It's all mental (maybe partially chemical) and I know it but it's kinda built into my system; so my correcting this problem is mostly my "work". So there's your truth. I love this site; it's fun the people are cool; it's interesting; it's me. Everyhting I said here was me. My mind is clear here.
So I'll probably update again when things get better or not. But I don't want to be here all the time; it only accomplishes little towards fixing my problem. If I don't come back or for the time being, it was good knowing you in the sense that I did. Take care. Maybe I'll see some around.
Werd
End story........
ps. Fuck all this bullshit; I didn't ask for any of it. But for some reason it was given to me and I'll get read of it. I promise.