Hi!
Did I ever tell you about when I broke up with my ex? We were together for 3 and a half years, that's 16 to 19 years old. He was a really nice guy, actually the more appropriate term was boy. That was the main problem in our relationship. I can't even count the amounts of times I've been naked and calling him to bed, getting 'hang on lemme finish this raid/quest/fight' as an answer. Don't get me wrong, I love my videogames, this isn't a rant on that. Our falling out was mainly attributed to being quite young, and growing in different directions. I loved him, but it wasn't enough anymore. I broke his heart by ending the relationship. It broke mine as well, but it doesn't matter when you're doing the ending, right?
He's doing very well for himself now. He moved out of his parents place (something I would not have seen happenning ever), oppenned his own buisness, works out, dropped drugs altogether, and seems like a happy person overall. He'll never admit it, and he doesn't need to really, but he got a kick in the ass when I left him, and that jumpstarted his life.
I've been thinking about how things tend to happen that way in life. I've heard the end is just the beginning many times, but I think this is the first time in my life when I've actually been thinking about the implications of that meaning. Death brings life, and that's a beautiful thing. But what happens to those moments when people don't catch them? Have we lost all sense of hope or... thought? Do we rather believing in the end of things then in the beginning? Are we so self absorbed in our own little problems that we can't notice what good comes out of actions? Consequences can be good... Why don't we spend more than 5 minutes thinking about those, rather then send ourselves in a deep and hard depression spiral for weeks?
Obviously I do this, and I'm not trying to judge anyone here, we all have reasons for thinking the way we do.
Sometimes, you get a moment of clarity where you can say to yourself, wow, this could be so much easier on me if I just looked at it differently.
So in conclusion, my thought for the day: when something bad happens, why not try and look at it in a completely different angle? it doesn't need to be realistic, it doesn't need to be butterflies and rainbows, but at least try to find a different angle. Be it that in the end you're still getting a divorce, but at least the dog will get a larger back yard... You know what I mean.
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Don't forget to go see my buns and talent in MR
My weekend consisted of booooooring. I wanted Tequila, but the liquor store was closed. So I corner store improvised coctails. I call it:
The Cheap Atlea:
1 shot grape, melon or apple Bootlegger 11%
2 shots Vodka Poppers (Shmirnoff ice) 7.5%
top off with Sprite
Lemon slice
Cheap booze with high percentage. mmm. So with the grape bootlegger it tastes like mr. freeze
Alright I'm out, singing off with the song my ex e-mailed me after not talking for 2 months after I left him. Took him a year to email me again to talk.
I think he was very upset with me for a very long time.
xoxo
Did I ever tell you about when I broke up with my ex? We were together for 3 and a half years, that's 16 to 19 years old. He was a really nice guy, actually the more appropriate term was boy. That was the main problem in our relationship. I can't even count the amounts of times I've been naked and calling him to bed, getting 'hang on lemme finish this raid/quest/fight' as an answer. Don't get me wrong, I love my videogames, this isn't a rant on that. Our falling out was mainly attributed to being quite young, and growing in different directions. I loved him, but it wasn't enough anymore. I broke his heart by ending the relationship. It broke mine as well, but it doesn't matter when you're doing the ending, right?
He's doing very well for himself now. He moved out of his parents place (something I would not have seen happenning ever), oppenned his own buisness, works out, dropped drugs altogether, and seems like a happy person overall. He'll never admit it, and he doesn't need to really, but he got a kick in the ass when I left him, and that jumpstarted his life.
I've been thinking about how things tend to happen that way in life. I've heard the end is just the beginning many times, but I think this is the first time in my life when I've actually been thinking about the implications of that meaning. Death brings life, and that's a beautiful thing. But what happens to those moments when people don't catch them? Have we lost all sense of hope or... thought? Do we rather believing in the end of things then in the beginning? Are we so self absorbed in our own little problems that we can't notice what good comes out of actions? Consequences can be good... Why don't we spend more than 5 minutes thinking about those, rather then send ourselves in a deep and hard depression spiral for weeks?
Obviously I do this, and I'm not trying to judge anyone here, we all have reasons for thinking the way we do.
Sometimes, you get a moment of clarity where you can say to yourself, wow, this could be so much easier on me if I just looked at it differently.
So in conclusion, my thought for the day: when something bad happens, why not try and look at it in a completely different angle? it doesn't need to be realistic, it doesn't need to be butterflies and rainbows, but at least try to find a different angle. Be it that in the end you're still getting a divorce, but at least the dog will get a larger back yard... You know what I mean.
***
Don't forget to go see my buns and talent in MR
My weekend consisted of booooooring. I wanted Tequila, but the liquor store was closed. So I corner store improvised coctails. I call it:
The Cheap Atlea:
1 shot grape, melon or apple Bootlegger 11%
2 shots Vodka Poppers (Shmirnoff ice) 7.5%
top off with Sprite
Lemon slice
Cheap booze with high percentage. mmm. So with the grape bootlegger it tastes like mr. freeze
Alright I'm out, singing off with the song my ex e-mailed me after not talking for 2 months after I left him. Took him a year to email me again to talk.
I think he was very upset with me for a very long time.
xoxo
By the way, it's been snowing here. How's your weather?
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You're probably one of the few people in Montreal who does that! I witnessed it very rarely.
it's not uncommon that people change your war, grow up after the relationship is over. something seems to hold them back as one is held back.