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oingo boingo comes on and im compelled to update. dead mans party can to peculiar things to some people. so there is a few women who i work with and that always brings weird complications if you have to talk to them. one has wanted to eff me for awile but she is a trollop. the other is a new hire and apparently she is a lesbian. i could care less until the conversation the other day. a little background... i have put in my two weeks notice in attempt at a better life. so she says last week that i was in a sex dream with her and i was fantastic. i laughed it off. whatever. it was the cause for jokes for a few days. then i announced my resignation and a week in, someone said something about them having a party for me or at least getting a cake or something. i said i was a dick to everyone on the sales floor and they wouldnt dare. the lesbian girl said that the one girl was nice to me and i replied that it was because she just wanted to fuck me. she laughed and said she did too and i said bring it on. (thinking she was gay and wouldnt go through with it.) . later in the day she came up to the floor i run and said she really wanted to sleep with me. i asked her what was the sudden interest in men and she said it wasnt men..it was just me. what a boost to the ego. now i have to deal with latent sexual urges at work. at least i wont have to be there long.
whats worse is that i keep running into crushes i used to have in college. i am so jaded about dating and relationships now that i tend to blurt. so when these girls come up im all like... too bad you got a boyfriend cause i would really like to go out with you....... you can see the confusion on there faces and its priceless. i catch myself looking at women i find attractive and asking myself, am i good looking enough for her to even acknowledge me if i would talk to her? all this shit has made me realize i need to burn myself when i think about women. but....god save the queen....she aint a human being.