atak

last nite i realized that this february my father turns 50, and in july i turn 25... which means that when my father was my age, last month he would have been getting the news that he was going to be a father.
this blew my mind for like 20 minutes
and then i applied the equation to myself and gave my father silent ups for being responsible for even wanting a kid let alone planning one and following thru. and now i just feel old.
so last friday i got trizzashed because it was a friend from ohio's birthday and a wrecking crew of good ol' boys came to celebrate it in the 'burgh. at last call i looked like a human bobble head and said i would spring for gyro's at toms diner. we went, and i referred to the waitress as old lady to her face over and over. then, this girl comes and sits by me and starts talking to one of my friends. i look over and in my stupor realized that i knew her which i announced at the top of my lungs. she concurred and said that was the reason she was sitting next to me. long story short we used to work together and kind of date when i was a tyke. she gave me her # and drummed it into my head to call the next day which i did. we talked for over an hour and she said she would like to go out early this week and to call her.
i called once on monday...waited... no call back.
tuesday...no call back.
its wednesday and i am expecting nothing.
ive already decided to call her friday to see what she is doing this weekend and if she would want to hang out. but if she doesnt call back after that then fuck her.
im just glad i left the only phone message casual because i dont want to feel like a needy jackass.
and what the fuck am i doing anyway. i dont even want a girlfriend.
i just want people to stick by their word.
females in general.
suggestions???