i was swept with a wave of depression on the trolley ride home from work today and it was directly the fault of all of the SG people that i met on saturday at the helloween party.
i found myself looking around and realizing that due to my career choices and the ominous fact that i'm out of school i really dont meet alot of people face to face that i really enjoy talking to. all of the jr. business clones and the upper middle matriarchs on the public transit system seem so cold and unpersonable if you dont wear a suit, arent clean shaven, have earrings. etc. etc. etc. not that i really want to talk to these people anyway but meeting and seeing the SG folks i already knew packed in a single venue this weekend made me realize that there really are people out there that are intelligent and have poignant quips that i enjoy partaking in. i dont think i pretended to laugh at someones anecdotes once on saturday. and what a refreshing change that was.
i suppose there are a couple of ways to look at this.
1: there actually are great people out there that arent complete idiots and have an oppinion that they came up with instead of regurgitating the same old shit that you hear from everyone else. and that you should look forward to meeting the next like minded individual and hold in high regard the people you already know that effect your life even minutely and momentarily.
(im sure thats a run on sentence but give me a break)
2:you will have to reap the whirlwind of the professional choices you have made and learn to deal with you own inadiquacy around others.
3: its time to make a change. the career stands, ive already gone too far to try and do something else.
Plus, i like my job. so the only other thing that i can really control is location. it may be time to move away from pittsburgh. somewhere where the cultural epicenter is more than a block long and centered around booze. im open to suggestions and im serious about this. my lease is up in april and that should be enough time to save the mandatory 3000 dollars moving money that i set for myself every time i uproot.
p.s.
i was on this kick for a long time that men and women will just never ever work out. a man doesnt really want to listen to a woman talk about mindless shit about co-workers and accessories. he needs sex and so he puts up with it.
but now im thinking that you really can appreciate someone that can challenge your mental capacity, give you the kick in the ass you used to rely on your parents for, and most importantly...
from time to time, tell you its all gonna be alright.
i miss that
i found myself looking around and realizing that due to my career choices and the ominous fact that i'm out of school i really dont meet alot of people face to face that i really enjoy talking to. all of the jr. business clones and the upper middle matriarchs on the public transit system seem so cold and unpersonable if you dont wear a suit, arent clean shaven, have earrings. etc. etc. etc. not that i really want to talk to these people anyway but meeting and seeing the SG folks i already knew packed in a single venue this weekend made me realize that there really are people out there that are intelligent and have poignant quips that i enjoy partaking in. i dont think i pretended to laugh at someones anecdotes once on saturday. and what a refreshing change that was.
i suppose there are a couple of ways to look at this.
1: there actually are great people out there that arent complete idiots and have an oppinion that they came up with instead of regurgitating the same old shit that you hear from everyone else. and that you should look forward to meeting the next like minded individual and hold in high regard the people you already know that effect your life even minutely and momentarily.
(im sure thats a run on sentence but give me a break)
2:you will have to reap the whirlwind of the professional choices you have made and learn to deal with you own inadiquacy around others.
3: its time to make a change. the career stands, ive already gone too far to try and do something else.
Plus, i like my job. so the only other thing that i can really control is location. it may be time to move away from pittsburgh. somewhere where the cultural epicenter is more than a block long and centered around booze. im open to suggestions and im serious about this. my lease is up in april and that should be enough time to save the mandatory 3000 dollars moving money that i set for myself every time i uproot.
p.s.
i was on this kick for a long time that men and women will just never ever work out. a man doesnt really want to listen to a woman talk about mindless shit about co-workers and accessories. he needs sex and so he puts up with it.
but now im thinking that you really can appreciate someone that can challenge your mental capacity, give you the kick in the ass you used to rely on your parents for, and most importantly...
from time to time, tell you its all gonna be alright.
i miss that
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trent_lacoye:
southside sounds like a plan for next weekend. I'll probably be there tonight, maybe with Akro if he gets done moving at a reasonable time. Hung out with your boy Carm last night. He apologized all up and down about the $10 thing.
persya:
thank you 