These days, I have more tattoos than when I was a Hopeful. These days, I’m healing; looking forward to the light at the end of a disorienting tunnel. These days, I work on myself yet don’t feel like I’m doing enough. These days, I wonder what my future will be like. Sometimes I feel fear and sometimes I feel hopeful, but I almost always feel sadness. Don’t get me wrong, despite my sadness, I think very highly of myself. What makes me sad is that at my age, I haven’t found someone who feels the same way for me as I do for them. I think that my body is being wasted by not being paired with a man of my equal. So, I work on myself as a person because maybe that will either connect me with the right man, or make me feel okay about being alone. Also, these days, I’m more active in my horse world. I’ll say more about that next time.🥰
